An Apology Letter to My Body
I believe that healing always starts with an apology. Always. When we need to heal a relationship in our life we begin with an apology. One from our heart and full of honesty. Today I am allowing myself to heal. I am going to allow myself to love my body for what it is and what is does for me. Not it's lack in muscle definition or it's inability to match what is plastered all over social media. Healing starts with apology. Here is an apology letter to my body.
To my body,
I am sorry for what I have expected from you these past two years. For being convinced that you were not good enough. I've put so much pressure on you to look a certain way, move a certain way, and at times be a different person completely. I am sorry for letting myself believe that the amount of muscle you have defines the worth you have to me. I am sorry for the distasteful looks I have given you. I was blind to the fact that you were created perfectly for me. I am sorry for wishing I could change you overnight. I am sorry for hating the way some clothes fit. I am sorry for getting angry at you. I've been bitter towards you, when all you've done is care for me.
Thank you for caring for me when I neglected you. For fighting illness and exhaustion when I gave you no help. Thank you for working endlessly and perfectly to insure that I get the most out of this beautiful life. Thank you for giving me the ability to swim, run, jump, play, and laugh. Thank you for giving me the strength to wake up at 5am and study the Word of God. Thank you for allowing me to ski a powder day and to ice skate for hours and hours with the friends I love. Thank you for always making me the first on your list - even when you were the last on mine.
I am sorry for eating foods that harm more than they help. For being unaware how badly you need real food that has purpose. I am trying to do better. Thank you for being patient while I find my rhythm in the gym again. Thank you for runner's highs and heaving lungs. Thank you for giving me energy when I feel there is none left. Thank you for continually showing me what is good for me and what is not.
Thank you for loving me. Thank you for caring for me. Thank you for keeping me alive. Thank you for helping me do the things I love.
If you've been struggling with body image or anything of the like, I highly recommend writing an apology letter to you body. Thank it for all it does and all it continues to do. Once you change the mindset you have towards your body, the way you care for it will start to change as well.